“Above all, don’t lie to yourself. The man who lies to himself and listens to his own lie comes to a point that he cannot distinguish the truth within him, or around him, and so loses all respect for himself and for others. And having no respect he ceases to love.”

Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers

Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy against the Holy Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men.- Matt 12:31

Note: I view the Holy Spirit as the indwelling presence of God that’s within each of us. Or the highest good within man. A man that rejects his highest good cannot receive good into his life, and is therefore damning his future. This lasts as long as this form of deluded thinking lasts. Basically, to blaspheme against the Holy Spirit is to live in a state of consciousness that denies its own good. Really we experience this when we have mental hang ups that deny us simple freedoms like health, good relationships, abundance, etc.  Sorry to get all spiritual/ metaphysical.

I finally got the courage to see myself differently. I have been watching a buddy of mine lately. He’s a professional trainer that was sick recently, and due to his illness, he gained a lot of unwanted weight. Once he got well, his mind got better also, and within weeks he began to drop body fat like crazy.

I would say that his body has muscle memory, we have different body types, he doesn’t have as much weight to lose as I do, or he has more time to train than I do because he doesn’t have a 9 to 5. But secretly all that I was really doing was convincing myself that I was an underdog. And that’s where the Blasphemy/Lies/ Self Deception comes in.

I’m literally convincing myself to believe and expect less of myself. This folks damns me to a life of giving mediocre attempts at greatness. Now that’s hell if there is any. What’s worse than not being who and what God made you to be?

“What we are is God’s gift to us. What we become is our gift to God”- Eleanor Powell

Not anymore.

I am strong

More than capable, and I am

Courageous = Oue excuses tend to zap the life out of our ability to go all out. We’re afraid of being let down more than we’re afraid of going all out. We feel that if we go all out and quote un quote fail, it will just be another confirmation that we’re not enough, and that life doesn’t work for us. That’s a load of B.S, but we accept it because we are afraid of becoming that consistent person that we instinctively know that we have to become. This person can not only get the results that we’re after, but they can also keep them. We’re secretly afraid of the real transformation that has to take place that takes us from average to obsessed. So instead we delude ourselves with self talk that validates our fears, and settle to live like the rest of the world #average.

Somebody say with me, “Not anymore”!

No longer will we be bound to mental shackles that we have allowed our false understanding of life’s experiences handcuff us with. We violently and courageously demand more out of ourselves.

As for me, I have accepted that there are no quick fixes, and that the only fix that works is a made up mind to follow through no matter what.

” Discipline is being able to force yourself to do something, in spite of how you feel, over and over, until it becomes a habit.” – Kim Brenneman